So the Heels just had their first scrimmage last night and the Cougs have their first today. It was only a matter of time before the greatest picture EVER got released to this blog (All the best CofC fans in one place.)
If my left arm had been turned in a little it would have looked like my arms barely got over my head even when holding them straight up. Let's be honest: people already wonder that.
I decided I would write about two things this week: 1 - a picture of my sinful habits and 2 - a little about my family life the last two weeks with my grandmother (MawMaw) passing away.
1 - We crashed the college church lunch last Sunday to be with some of our YL leader friends and to score some free pot roast. I planned on not really talking to anyone so as to not give myself away, but this one guy introduced himself to me and started asking me about myself (dang you nice people!!!). So naturally I started lying. I am still a Comm major with a Psych minor, but I'm actually a senior at UNCW now. Bet none of ya'll knew that. So, of course, my wife comes up right after my lie, not knowing what a loser I have been, and introduces herself and me with truthful information. Busted! All this was followed by my silence and a speedy walk away after scooping some mashed potatoes on my plate. I kind of had to laugh at myself afterward just to avoid puking due to my grossness. I think I used to be somewhat of a compulsive lier/embellisher, but haven't really seen myself there for a while. I mean, I was no less perfect after lying than I was before the lie. Telling the truth wouldn't have made me a better person or qualified by my actions for more love from God. I think I identify daily with Paul when he calls himself the worst of sinners. Thank God that I am not made righteous by anything that I do. I forget that pretty easily, because people aren't like God; I'm not like God.
2 - It's been a real tough last few years with my MawMaw being sick for my whole family, and mostly for my grandfather (Danno) and my Mom. The past two weeks have definitely been a time of thinking "what the heck was that all about?" I got to talk at MawMaw's funeral about how grandparents always make you feel like a treasure; how I could never do wrong in the eyes of my MawMaw. Through that kind of love I developed a jealousy, loving her back because I was hers and I wanted her to be mine. So even when loving her in the later years was uncomfortable, I wanted to. In the 13th chapter of Matthew's gospel account Jesus says that a man found a treasure in a field and went and sold all he had to buy the field so he could have the treasure. The man he was talking about was himself; He gave all He had on the Cross, and we are the treasure. So we get to love the One back who loves us like the treasure we are to Him. The love He gave was uncomfortable and hard; harder than a parent or grandparent's love. That's what I feel like my MawMaw's life points to. But how do we, at the end of things say: "I am His and He is mine"? Most people, if they believe in Heaven, would still say something like "I'll try to do my best to get to Heaven." Man, how crappy is that!? The Man has payed all He had to buy the field, and the Treasure doesn't even know that He can say back "I belong to you." How does one belong to God? Scripture repeatedly tells us that the answer is simply "believe." It changes our whole lives. We become jealous for His love when we believe, and we start to love Him back. But even on days when we don't, when we tell people bold faced lies, we still lay safe in His pocket, because we have believed. I may be a loser with sinful habits occasionally surfacing on the day I die, but I'm goin' to Heaven people! Count on it.
Weekly favorites:
- Food: Orangeade
- Song: "Don't Give Up on Me" by Andrew Peterson
- Fact: The moon is 400x closer and 400x smaller than the Sun, making for a perfect Solar eclipse, and allowing us to study specific things about the universe. From this we have learned about spectra of stars, that gravity bends light, Earth's rotation changes, and have been able to date ancient calendars.
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